I may seem confident in someone's eyes, but from my closed friends', they won't think so.

I am self-doubting and somehow insecure. To be honest, I love when everything is well planned, well organized, has lowest likelihood of unpredicted situation. But well, as you know, that is not what life is. Life is full of surprises.

Last night, I was thinking about working abroad so I can be in Europe, working on things I love and get paid so well, living in the weather I like, being close to many dream destinations. Suddenly, I felt so scared. Scared of being somewhere I know no one, and with the big language barrier I have experienced.

I noticed it needs to be changed, and this is the time I should analyze my own comfort zone.